n words i look

2004-05-29T17:20:00.000-07:00

do u understand i ?

honestly i can't say that you understand the way i feel
how real this feeling is, how much i care
all of the ways i dream of you, wishing i could be there
we didn't start this not knowing each others situations
i just want our relationship to grow without limitations
complications will always confuse feelings, even when it's true love
i guess that complications show us what we are made of
are we great only when things are on the up
or when things get dark, do we continplate a break up
loving you have been something i have always needed in life
dreaming of you being my best friend, becoming my wife
WOW is the only way i can describe the way it feels
is what you feel real?, did you take the red or green pill
you say you love me so much, but, well nevermind
you say that you miss me so much, but, well nevermind
i just want to do what i can to make you feel the way i do
do you understand that i am willing to do whatever i have to
do u understand

2004-05-02T10:39:00.000-07:00

Nu Luv

Nu Luv, it is nothing like the feel, the taste, the smell of it,
Nu Lov, is it really real or are you just smelling the same ole shit
Nu Luv, it have it ways of making you feel like you're on top of the world
Nu Luv, to much of it, just like alcohol will make you earl
Nu Luv, at one point you'll feel like no other luv exsist
Nu Luv, will have you doing crazy things, taking all types of risk
Nu Luv, we have all had this feeling at one point in our life
Nu Luv, is it true luv, because all nu luv isn't always your type
Nu Luv, it will make you focus on that one and only, no other will do
Nu Luv, when it's no longer nu can you still say that your luv is true

2004-02-09T14:03:00.000-08:00

Thank You For Stopping By. Please Keep Reading.... From The Author.

2004-02-09T13:58:00.000-08:00

all about me

my baby momma told me that i should write this shit
but that is okay because i am going to write some shit

see it is all bout me according to her and others
but that is cool cause i know that i can be a selfish mutherfucker

so that mean i really don't care i got to do it my way
don't care who feelings i hurt or who get in my way

cause if you allow me to step on you, brace yourself
cause if you don't care that means i can care less

don't take none of this personal but realize it is real
cause it is all bout me, and that is the way it is

don't be disappointed, disturbed, or feel dis
cause if you care about me you won't get piss

after reading this, you will only feel my riegn
and if you know shawn you know shawns pain

i only got a lot to gain and so little to lose
so i am looking out for me, and could care less about you

unless you are looking out for me, and i doubt that
you rather see me doing bad or laying on my back

asking you for a helping hand, i don't understand
you say i ain't shit but do you know who i am

i am a man and you are all on my sack
i sugguest you take three steps back, beath in, relax

cause this ain't no joke, i got to be me
so i will end this with fuck u, cause it's all about me

2004-02-09T13:52:00.000-08:00

Don't B Afraid
do you feel that your feelings are wrong, do you feel as if the walls are closing in
i don't want you to feel that you're making a wrong move, being just my friend
i guess that in time you will know what it is that you want, unless
you know what you want now, and afraid to accept it somehow
we can't say because of the past we don't want to experience the present
i could and should be in your future, why do you think i was sent
it was to be the one that dry up your tears, someone to hold your trust
that person that want to be with you out of love, not lust
now you know that i am feeling your body, your face, your tone
i am feeling your energry, your conversation, the way we flirt on the phone
on one hand i would agree and say that friends is what we should remain to be
but that would be the scared little boy inside of me
but in the other hand, the man is telling me that without change all things remain the same
so tell me what is there really to be scared of, could it be love
could it be that you are scared of your heart being broken, or are you afraid to break a heart
that is the most difficult thing about love, the most scary part
but the easy and the best thing about it is when you find that love you've never knew was true
you want to really see if i am going to be the one that is going to be with you
though all the thick and thin, though the bullshit and the cheesecake
though wire or though the fire, though all of the mistakes
well i want to be there when you cry, smile, frown, spit, cum, fail, succeed
i want to give you everything i can't give you plus so much more
i want to give you true love in your life nothing less and nothing more
so you can go ahead and give me those feelings, i promise i will treat you as you treat me
don't b afraid of what is meant to be

2004-02-09T13:49:00.000-08:00

gave me the wrong number

one look i know i had to have her, so i started my appoach
i could tell that you were the type that didn't fly coach
but like a spade hand this king had to play his ace
but you were the wild joker type with a queens face
so you gave me the convo, just the right type of info
single, job, own place, car, so everything was a go
so i ask for the 7 so i could call around quarter till 6
5:43:21 was the time when i decide to go ahead and do it
i proceed to touch the keys that would connect me to your line
"damn" i must have hit that four when i was aiming for that five
so i redialed the number to get the same message
" the number you called is no longer is service or disconnected"
but how could this be when i played my ace on this queen
i mean i am a king and she was digging me it seem
so i dialed the number once again four five six seventy eight nighty
i don't beleive it this girl just ran game on me
and i thought i was a king getting a queen, but i got fooled jack
she gave me the wrong number, now how fucked up is that
i guess calling her out of her name was my first mistake
cause when i ask her for her number she didn't even heisitate
they say anything too easy isn't worth having anyway
so i guess i was too easy to her and she handled it that way
gave me the wrong number...

2004-02-05T12:51:00.000-08:00

i can't tell you how i feel because i am scared of you
i can't tell if i like you or if i want to fall in love with you

i can't tell you to give me your trust if you don't want to
i can't tell you to give me your time, if you don't want to

i can't tell how things are going to end between us
i can't tell if we are going to constantly make love or fuss

i can't predict the future and i don't want to try
i can't say that we will work, but i am willing to try

i can say that i enjoy everything that makes up you
i can say that i enjoy just knowing you

i can say that i will be true to you in every way
i can say that i will trust you and believe in what you say

i can do a lot of things and i can do them well
i can't make you feel what i feel, but time will tell

if i can or if i can't have your love...

written by: s.w. peele

2004-02-05T12:30:00.000-08:00

2004-02-03T13:04:00.000-08:00

i guess right now is a good time to talk,
come on grab your coat lets take a walk,

i have had this on my mind for a while now
i should have told you before, but i didn't know how

i still don't know how to express this feeling i feel
i guess because in my mind i want to know if it is real

in my heart, it is as real as it can get at this time
i guess that it is signal i am waiting on, some type of sign

what it is i don't know, but i will be glad when it arrive

2004-01-27T12:11:00.000-08:00

"Best Man"

Rest in peace to my deceased family members that have past
Remembering the times that you made me laugh
Remembering the times you made me cry
I thank you because now I know why
I thank you for showing me respect
Although sometimes you had to just put me in check
While other times on my own you would let me learn
I played with fire, and I got burned
I learned that there is a wrong and right to live life
You said make the right choice, because you don't live twice
In your eyes I hope I am being what I should be
A man who is standing on his own two feet
I take care of my seed just like you did your own
The last time I seen your daughter she was grown
But until I see you again I will try to be
A father figure, a friend, an uncle, the best man
I can be, just like you were.....

To my late great UNCLE ANDREW......

p.s. ... save me some cookies in heaven...

2004-01-25T10:49:00.000-08:00

12 TIMES

on the 1st day, of the 1st month of the year, we were together
we said to each other we would always be together

on the 14th of the 2nd month i brought flowers to your door
but you had found some other and didn't want me any more

on the 19th day of the 3rd month you came back into my life
it was the 1st day of spring, and you were back to being my wife

on the 1st day of the 4th month i was fooled by you
you said that you tried to love me but it's something you just couldn't do

so on the 9th day of the 5th month i seen you at your mother house
you making me feel like we are playing a game of cat and mouse

on 21st day of the 6th month we had started our summer love
but in the back of my mind i am thinking is this really love

on the 4th day of the 7th month you said you need your freedom
i guess that i always knew that this day would come

the 8th month i had to spent by myself all alone
until you called me on the 31st saying you wanted to come back home

so on the 1st day of the 9th month you came though the door
but i don't know if i can do this anymore

so on the 31st day of the 10th month i gave you a scare
you said you needed some space and I told you I didn't care

on the 22nd day of the 11th month you call me to say
that you wanted to spend some time on the 27th day

we cuddled on the 21th day of the 12th month together
on that 31st day of that month we said we would be together forever

maybe the 12th time will be our time
until the next time...

2004-01-24T20:32:00.000-08:00

CREAM

OH MY GOODNESS WHAT IS THIS ALL ON MY FACE

WHAT FLAVOR ARE YOU, CAUSE I REALLY LOVE THE TASTE

LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU GET SOME MORE, DON'T LET IT GO 2 WASTE

WAS IT SOMETHING THAT I DID TO MAKE YOU CREAM

DID I DO JUST AS GOOD AS THE MAN IN YOUR DREAM

DID I DO IT LONG ENOUGH FOR YOU, CAUSE I CAN DO IT SOME MORE

I WILL BE GENTLY ON IT, I DON'T WANT TO MAKE YOUR SORE

JUST KEEP THAT CREAM CUMMING CAUSE IT IS SO FULLFILLING

TO HEAR YOU MOAN, "STOP I CAN'T TAKE IT" IS SO THRILLING

I GUESS I WILL DO WHATEVER I HAVE TO DO TO MAKE YOUR SCREAM

BECAUSE I KNOW WHEN YOU SCREAM I GET TO TASTE YOUR CREAM

2004-01-24T20:31:00.000-08:00

sorry, I

sorry I fell in love with you,
sorry I make you feel so good

sorry I can't be with you
sorry, but it's nothing i can do

sorry that you aren't the one i love
sorry if you cry and weep

sorry, but i had you already
sorry but it's you i can't keep

sorry for being sorry for so long
sorry, sorry, sorry i...

2004-01-24T20:27:00.000-08:00

"me all day"

i came from the hood where nobody gave a fuck,
i wasn't the prettiest guy around i was the ugly duck
in elementry they always tried to move me up a grade
but in high school it was all about trying to be cool
how many girls i fucked, how much beer i drank
i remember my first love telling my boy how my breath stank
i don't forget shit, although i wish it wasn't that way
things that happen half my life ago i remember like yesterday
i think i missed my calling, my life should be better
i should have been a writing, oh how i use to write love letters
pages after pages about how i felt
damn shame that i got the hand i was delt
but i don't feel bad everything happen for a reason
this year is my year, but it's gonna take some hard breathing
and hard breathing comes from playing and working hard
so i got to bust my ass to get it, so don't you forget it
i am the most realist and nicest nigga you know, come on admit it
where i lack in looks i make up in personality and flare
see every nigga can't have a six pack and nice hair
so when you see me, with cornrows, tattoos, looking all thick
you are looking at a nigga that won't give you no type of bullshit
i am that nigga that you are going to love to love
i am that type of nigga that you can't get enough of
so that's why they call me skillz
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2004-01-23T07:42:00.000-08:00

"Thinking of Luv"
This time spent away from you hurts me like a deep bruise
knowing that your love won't let me choose
another love, because I feel you are the only one for me
even in the windest dust storm I can see
what we have is more than physical attraction
it's that emotional satifaction, no distactions or any actions
for another can make me feel like this
this is real and my words I am sealing with a kiss
so when you return to me, give me a kiss and hug
knowing that it is you that made me fall in love
with loving you

2004-01-23T07:16:00.000-08:00

"think before you speak"
You never knew I'd take your heart and break it in two
But it's just one of the few things that I will do to you
Like take you back and fourth on a fantasy
Get your honey, take your money, have you feeling funny
Now you wish you can take it all back
I got you cutting tires, keying doors, you don't know how to act
What I do can never come back to haunt me
Because there is no rules in this game you see
But since you broke down and destroyed property
You are locked up and I am still be me
They call me many names, some you never heard of
You think I am a man, but my name is love
So talk about me, tell everyone I will destroy the weak
One peice of advice, Think before you act and speak
Love loves nobody, not even you.....

2004-01-23T06:46:00.000-08:00

"The Question, The Answer
From miles and miles I see your smile like the north star
I'm in my car trying to get to where you are
On my way to see you, thinking about what I want to do
You know how I am so I guess you have a clue or two
I want to romance you give you a stone
Your love is for real, so you could call it a love you jones
Your ar just too much, like cherry pie you taste so sweet
Now that we are face to face I think we need to speak
About what I want to do, let me give you a clue
Here is the ring, I want to spend the rest of my life with you
Baby girl I love you, so will you say I do

Yes I do, being your wife, I think would be so nice
Waking up to your face, making love to you ever night
Just to be with you brings me such a thrill
Just being next to you, give me a chill
The way you make me feel, damn I'm so happy
You love me, when my hair is nappy and my elbows are ashy
You make me cry with joy, you tickle me pink
I can wear your pleather coat, I don't need no mink
I got all I need and all I need is you
So yes I will be yours forever so I'm saying I do

written 1998
by yours truly

2004-01-23T06:27:00.000-08:00

T.L.
I still think of you everyday, in a funny way,
I know that I had too many chances to say,
Everything I wanted to, but I held back,
I saw you in pain, I didn't know how to react,
Asking you fi you're okay when I know you're hurt,
And I can't do a damn thing about it, and man that hurts,
But I know you knew I love you, we were like that,
I would give my own life just to have yours back,
My baby brother, best friend, I miss you man,
You have been gone for a while, still I don't understand,
I still don't want to accept that shit,
Life's truly a bitch and I just can't take it,
Still I feel like crying cause you are no longer here,
All I have is memories and those aren't enough
I got to be strong, although I know it's gonna be tough
When a love one have past, how long can I last
I Really, Really, Really miss you T.L.

TLPRODUKSHUNS 4 LIFE

2004-01-23T05:34:00.000-08:00

Open your eyes please take a look at me,
Open your ears please listen to me,
Open your heart please feel me

See it's that style, that walk, that grace
See it's those eyes and that beautiful face
See it's those lips, that ass, that body is so tone
See it's you that I want to be with all alone

I hear you when you say I love you too
I hear you when you say I miss you too
I hear you when you say there's nothing you wouldn't do
I hear you when you say I turn your gray skies blue

I feel you when you are happy or sad
I feel you when your mood is good or bad
I feel you when you're crying holding me
I feel you when you're just trying to be with me

I see what I like, I hear what I like
But I love what I feel holding you tight

written n 2000

2004-01-23T05:30:00.000-08:00

2 the son
if you didn't know the son comes first
forget all the other fake niggas
just give me von and that is all i need
he is my life line my only need to breath
i love you kid and that is all i need to say
if you ever need me i am just a word away
it's anything for SA and nothing for the others
cause VON is my son, my best friend, like a baby brother
devided by twenty years he keep me on the go
i love my little man and as long as he know
i will be there though thick and thin
this is from my heart and now it's under my skin
i love you SAVON

2004-01-21T14:06:00.000-08:00

who r u?

who r u thinking you can just make me love you
who r u thinking that we aren't threw

i think you r who u don't want to be
i think you r still in love with me

y do you love me so much, i must be blind
y do you stay when i don't give you no time

can it be love, lust, or are you just a little ta ta
can it be that you think you are going to get far

i am here to set the record straight, I DON'T LOVE YOU
i am here to let you know the truth, so do you

by the way did i ask who r u?

2004-01-20T22:01:00.000-08:00

no more

no more will i give a damn about how you feel
no more will i care less if you call yourself keeping it real

no more will i try to consider what you go though
no more means no more, muthafucker i am though

no more headaches from you, right now i don't give a fuck
no more being there when you need me, you fucked if you get stuck

no more me being mister nice guy and shit
no more of me giving you this tongue and dick

no more helping you out, i don't care what you do for me
no more being your friend, cause i am looking out for me

no more means no more and that is that
no more nothing from me..... you son of a biscuit

2004-01-20T21:58:00.000-08:00

"busted?... but it doesn't matter"

setting in front row at the concert, dinner overlooking the sea
i ordered the highest bottle of wine, money is no object to me
staring into you eyes i feel hypnotized
i popped the question and you don't even look surprise
you don't even look happy what did i do wrong
i even got the violinist to come play our favorite song
forever my lady, by jodeci the name of the jam
you said, not in my lifetime would you be my wife, i am like damn
i couldn't believe what i was hearing, am in a state of shock
she even started laughing, now i want to get her knocked
feels like i could kill her, but i ain't going doing that
she said she could explain everything and she'd be right back
so when she return along came monica, melissa, and felicia
i said, "hi there ladies it's really nice to meet ya"
but i know these women already, but i couldn't admit that shit
now the shit done hit the fan and i am looking like a bitch
felicia was my monday and tuesday girl, her head game was sick
melissa was my white chick, i never seen a white chick ass that thick
so if felicia got monday and tuesday, melissa got wednesday and thursday
monica got the weekend, so friday is my off day
see monica is a freak like me, damn she does it all
she let me fuck in the ass, she swallows, like licking my ass and my balls
but i am not in love with those girls, i am in love with my girl
she is what really matters to me, she is the center of my world
that is why i am learning from those others to make our sex life better
i wanted to be the best man i could be so we could last forever
so i ask her, who are these females, some friends from work
she said, "i know you been fucking this girl, you fuckin' jerk"
i replied, "baby i would never do that, plus you know my type
see those two black girls are too tall and that girl right there is white"
although she didn't believe that shit, i will never admit it
i will take it with me to the grave, but look how much money i save
i am going to take back the ring and get a full refund
i was in love with her too, but now i got to find another one
the best way to get over a female is to get on top of another
i ain't going to shed a tear, i am not that type of brother
i am going to the club and bring another female home
i am gonna do me, so what she left me alone
but see she will be back the good girls always return
and i am not going to change, so again she will get burned
see i am that no good guy that most of you women love to hate
you hate me for what i do and love me for what i can't do
and that is being true to you............ think about it

2004-01-18T00:23:00.000-08:00

2004-01-17T23:11:00.000-08:00

tell me

tell me why after so long did you return to my life after going though all the bullshit that i have been though,
tell me why is it I still get chills every time i speak to you,
tell me how can one love someone for so long without being loved in return,
tell me how long will it take for me to learn,
love don't have rules, it's not a game to play to see who will be the last standing,
please tell me what is going on with me because i need some understanding,
i need someone to explain my feelings to me,
now i know that sounds wired but oh how true it is.
should i feel a certain way or shouldn't i ,
please tell me when, where, and why i should love someone,
this one sided love affair isn't fair, but not to me but to you,
because maybe you don't know what it is that you do,
you don't know that you make me smile for no reason,
you don't know that i think of you all four seasons,
you don't know that your voice motivate me to do more than the norm,
you don't know that i you are the lighting and the thunder in my quiet storm,
i mean how could you know all of these things when you barely know me,
a part of me tells me to backspace to the beginning of the page
sometime feels like i am a actor on a stage
this isn't a play, but my reality, a dream is how i would describe being with you,
but like always none of my dreams come true,
so why should i think this one is going to be any different than my others,
i guess keeping hope alive is a price to pay sometimes you have to suffer
knowing that the one that you have always love have never truly loved you,
so only you know you, tell me what should i do,
i love being your friend, but i want to love you as more,
tell me what should i do, because i am not sure

2004-01-16T11:02:00.000-08:00

My Two Sons..................

my only reasons for breathing is my two boys
on the september 22nd, 1994 I open up my first toy
Savon Antwon Wilkerson, I remember it like it was yesterday
Then came Shamon Nyheim Reid-Wilkerson, March 2001, on the same day
My sons are the custiest things I have ever seen
My two sons, they really mean the world to me
The little boys of mines, they even kinda look like me
But I want them to be better, have more than me
But I couldn't want nothing more I got my kids
Savon and Shamon the reasons why I love and live

luv of my life

2004-01-16T10:30:00.000-08:00

Without Words.....................

A smile from you will do
A touch is just enough

A look into my eyes
A look into your eyes

A kiss on your lips
A kiss on my cheek

A little giggle from you
A little wink from me

I love you
We say this in those ways

Without words.............

2004-01-16T10:24:00.000-08:00

One Day Soon

One day in the near furture I will be on top of the world, you will see
It'll be me with all the ice, the cars, the women, then you will envy me
I am not jealous of all of the things you posses
I am just trying to do me and get some happiness
I am working hard to better myself, but it seems like
That hole is getter deeper, but nothing can hold me down
I got to get it going, I am not the type to lay down
I see you smiling thinking, "my god is this guy off his medication"
No I am just determine though everything, I am going to make it
One Day Soon

2004-01-16T10:00:00.000-08:00

well this is the poem page that i talked about and now i will be posting something nu or something old in here. feel free to make any sugguestion to me about the page. i am just having some fun with this. so enjoy as i give you some of my thoughts. WARNING... CONTAINS VULGAR LANGUAGE